Ya Allah, somehow today, i feel more at eased. I know deep down YOU are there for me. I have cried for days on my seperation with Imran. That i have seek and turn to You to help and heal this heart. I know it is not easy Ya Allah. But i know, You would guide me and fill my heart with Your love.

What I have learnt from this relationship is that at how beautiful a love can be. I have to admit that when I  agreed in taking Imran as my someone special, I have seen him as someone whom can guide me and not be my poison. It is true at that point, we may not have honeymoon period but somehow we still hold on strong with one another, with him guiding me. But when the relationship has changed to become something more of nafsu, things started to change. And Allah, has taken him away from me. But what i felt was that Allah is trying to save us from doing more harm to ourselves and at the same time saving us from the hell fire.  I know deep down, it is due to Allah love, that we got seperated. And InsyaAllah, only through taubat, we may end up together but if only Allah permits.

I know that a relationship could work and be more berkat if we did follow His larangan. We would be more taken care of and be more berkat. But i and imran has done mistakes and it is of noone fault that we broken up. I just hope that imran would come back to me and be my lawful husband. Somehow i didnt not dream of anyone else but Allah still knows the best.

Ya Allah, thank you for all the love You have given me. You have made me really strong in handling this. You have granted me with people who is willing to help me to pull through this episode of my life. With the doas from everyone, insyaAllah, i would be stronger and thus one day, able to forget the pain and the memory of me and him if we arent fated together.

Allah knows what is in your heart. Allah is there. Allahu Akhbar.

Ya Allah, you have never given up on me. And i would never give up in praying to you seeking for forgiveness and seeking for a better life.  Ya Allah, I miss You. Trully Nabi Muhammad is so fortunate to be your kekasih. Cause even me, a horrendous ummah, could feel the warmth and the feeling of happiness when i know and believe You are there, how about my Rasul?

Thank you Ya Allah, for allowing me to be one of your ummah and for giving me love and happiness. May You always watches over me.