Allah, my heart hurts. Allah, i need you. Allah, i need your mercy. Allah, i need your love. Allah, i need you to guide me. Allah, i miss u. Ya Allah, im so in pain. I feel so hurt ya Allah. How am i suppose to overcome this ya Allah? The pain is unbearable.  I wants him so much ya Allah. but I know that there so much i can do.

Iman tak dapat diwarisi. Tak dapat dijual beli. Ya Allah, give me the iman to hold on to my emotions. Ya Allah, give me the iman to be strong in overcoming this. Ya Allah, make me still aware if i were to happen to aib imran and not be blinded by my anger or emotions.

Ya Allah, make this as a turning point for me. And Alhamdulilah, for all the dugaan you have given me. I still appreciate it and bersyukur with it. Caiuse at the end of the day, it has make me wiser. Ya Allah, i know you have choosen the best man for me. And i know this man will come to me one day. Be it imran or not. I will wait. And i hope this time round it will be through the islamic ways. i just wanna your berkat. Have done mistakes in this relationship, but insyaAllah both me and imran would grow up.

Ya Allah, terimalah taubat kami. Ya Allah, terimalah kami balik di jalan yang diredhaimu. Ya Allah, biarlah dugaan ini menjadi pengajaran. Ya Allah, biarlah hati imran dan aku berjadi lembut for us to forgive each other.

I have always missed you Allah. I have missed my Rasul too. Will You give me Your shafaat to me in akhirat? Would i able to see RasulluAllah even for a glance?

A note to myself:

"Dont let the love of a human be more than your love for Allah and rasul. Dont let your heart be blinded by a failure of love. Wouldnt it better to work hard in getting more Allah love? Isnt that what makes it stays and true?"

Ya Allah, i wanna get married. Please let me ovecome this. Let my love be for the most right man and for a guy whom i officiially called husband.


For HIM i returned to. For Him i seek the blessing and help.
Ya Allah, give me yr rahmat. Give me your love.
Guide me. dont let me live in regret.
Amin.