know about me.

public nuisance.

my life is filled with love
my circumstances makes me matured
my family makes me strong
my friends make me learn

confession from public nuisance.

i created my own path according to my wish
i make a shit of life according to my emotions
i pick myself up according to my strength
i matured according to my experiences
public nuisance

links.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

My syukur + my missing for RasulluaAllah 3:26 PM

Alhamdulilah. Praises to Allah. He have answered my prayers. A prayer of helpless child towards a courageous and beautiful mother. When the dr said that she might be suspect of blood cancer, my heart really drop. But only yesterday, 20.June.2012 the dr have said that she is fine and cleared of all major diseases.

She is my source of pilliar. My soure of happiness and motivator. And she is the one who teaches me the beautiful religion called Islam. She would patiently encourage me to learn Islam and also to perform my prayers. She is the best lady ever. Ever. Ya Allah, for me, her place is definately jannah. She too kind to be in the hell fire. She went through alot in bringing us up. She has brave up to all the humiliation that the community have said about her. And she teaches her three daughters to obey to your command and also to actually be an Islam ambassador.

I have never known what is internal peace. I have never known what is to proudly say my shahadah. I now realise why RasulluAllah and his sahabat would die for Islam. When you learn the truth about Islam, you would die defending the purity of it. You wake up in pursuit of getting Allah blessing and rahmat. I miss Allah and Rasul. I am ashamed to meet them as i have dirtied myself with sins in akhirat. Ya Allah, please let me see RasulluAllah in my dream. Let me see how beautiful this man is. How lucky he is to be under your guidnace. but i know i am not pious. When i am alone, i cried. Cried cause not all muslims defending the religion like the way he did. I cried seeing his efforts are not practiced. And i promise to love, to be reminded of you effort in spreading Islam. Ya Allah, help me to be a good muslim. To have your redha.

I miss you ya Muhammad Saw. I wished i did borned in your era. To fight side by side with you. To live and die for you. To be labelled of "mati shahid". To see your calm face. To even imiatate and follow your character. Thank you for bringing Islam in this world. Thank you.

For HIM i returned to. For Him i seek the blessing and help.

Ya Allah, give me yr rahmat. Give me your love.

Guide me. dont let me live in regret.

Amin.