Ya Allah, if this has been your plan to make me a stronger person, then please give me the strength. I am so hurt ya Allah. With him. I do not wish to be a gurl who seem so "desperate" but i have never felt the importance of this.

"Ya Allah, you have given me him Ya Allah. I am glad for the beautiful 11 months that i have with him. But yA Allah, if this man is not right for me, give me the strength to ikhlaskan everything and moved on. I trully love him and i have build my dreams upon him for my future."

I need you Imran bin Mohamed Basir. I need you so much that i feel like i am the one who cant live without you But whatever the situation is, I know Allah knows the best for us.

Baby, i have thousand and one stuff of plans. Of my future.  Please come back. 

But my mother have given me a very important advise " Jangan cintakan seseorang luar daripade cinta kiter pade takdir Allah"

After him, i would not want to date anymore. I wanna go through the islamic way of marriage. I now understand why Allah say no to open dating. Cause it hurts if it do not turn out well.

"Cinta kiter pade manusia tidak kekal dan abadi, melainkan cinte kiter pade Allah."