public nuisance.
my life is filled with love
my circumstances makes me matured
my family makes me strong
my friends make me learn

confession from public nuisance.
i created my own path according to my wish
i make a shit of life according to my emotions
i pick myself up according to my strength
i matured according to my experiences
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Thursday, June 16, 2011
a long time visit 8:35 AM
16. July.2011 @ 0635hrs

Insanity is what i am going through right now. Feeling of remorse and regret kept coming back to me. It sucks dear diary. I wish to have a break from the cruelty of this life.

Turn left, i saw the pain of the past that i used to lead. Turn right, i saw the hope of moving on. Keeping on right really hard and sometime the test that come along the way is unbearable.

Going a through a seiries of problems. Major problems. Annoyed with getting demoralised by the people whom i once called friends. But i knew i have to stand on both feet for me to see that bright future of mine.

I am going to change diary. first thing first, i have to quit this ttsh job. At the same time, find a time to do volunteering.

i am changing... for a better person.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
sahabat 9:22 AM
Aper itu makne sahabat....?

Sahabat itu adalah seseorang yang berani menegur
walaupun tahu kawannye akan marah.
Sahabat itu berani berkater benar walaupun ia akan
menyakiti hati kawannya.
Sahabat itu berani menegak kebenaran untuk menjaga
maruah kawannya.
Sahabat itu rela melepaskan persahabatan itu jika keadaan
memaksa.
Sahabat itu tidak sanggup melihat titisan air mata di mata
kawannya.
Sahabat itu menjaga aib kawannya sebagai die menjaga nyawanya.
Sahabat itu ikhlas menyayanginya.
Dan akhir sekali, jikakalau kawannya sudah terbang jauh,
sahabat ini akan sentiase menantikan ketibaannya.

Bolehkah awak menjadi sahabat itu?

this is for you liy.... i dunnoe why... i just saw yr changes... am i suppose to keep quiet to save our friendship or am i suppose to advise... tanggungjawab sesama manusia. Liy, kau berubah... menjadi org yg ku tk kenal... pendirian kau mula hancur.... haiz.... i will wait till you fly back to yrself. but rite now, im sorry.... i cant witness a decent girl becoming this way.... u r my bestfriend. if i have to sacrfise myself to save u, i will do that. sincerely.

take care.
Monday, February 14, 2011
its a Hate anD loVe relatiOnship 4:42 AM
To say that i love you so much, i seriously darent.
Coz my heart is still healing from the previous time you hurt me....

To say i enjoyed every moment im with you, i darent.
coz you lost temper when u with me.

To say that i gave up hope, i darent.
coz i still believe u r mine.

To say that im perfect, i darent
coz you detest most of my character.

so now, what?

public nuisance
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
something new and cool 10:17 PM
09022011 @ 2019

I dunnoe why...but i just enjoy my 2011.. we cousins promised each other that we would be there for each other and also we kindda of start to meet up each other more often. I always feel nice noeing that they are there for me. My brothers, my heartbeat. My mum, my nyawa. My family, my skeleton.

30012011 @ 1400hrs

Met my cuzzies together with my besties liy. My cuzzies bring the partners along. Wan with haz, Faiz with Ria, Aliff with dunnoe who...(forgets her name :p). I wanted liy to come along not because i do not have a partner to bring along, but i miss her so much. With me working shifts, i had to grab every oppurtunities to meet her before she fly off!!! and Faiz fetch me and her from tampines!!! sweet kan!! he do not want me to be lonely.

@ 1500hrs :

after a light meal, when to bowling centre. Fully booked. So we played the new monopoly game. Quite interesting. I so wanna buy it.... but first, my twister game, then monopoly.... It was really cool game... played for a few rounds then we played bowling... hahaha.... everyone was not bad.. we just laughed at each other... ntg much.

@ 1900hrs:

Decided to go back to pasir ris just to have dinner... tu best.... semua makan mcm taknah mkn.. semua lapar...

@ 2200hrs

addicted to my brothers..seriously... thank you Allah for giving them to me.

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Sunday, January 16, 2011
happiness for two days 10:28 PM
14012011 @ 1230hrs

Went to phototaking with a colleague of mine. It was really funny and amazing. Izwinda is so weird... she enjoys it but she is shy about taking her pictures... hahaha... we kindda of have a gurlish moment with each other. The make up was nice, simple but yet jorjeous!!! really jorjeous... i will put up the pictures once i have it with me!!

@430hrs

i went out with sister later part of the day and watch belinqsue!! power giler... its a musical movie. thumbs up! everyone shuld watch it. hahaha... and seriously, the guy is so hot! macho giler... if only i have hym as my partner, takkan menyesal...

@ 700hrs

went makan with them @ lucky plaza... ntg much... but still great...

15012011 @ 430hrs

went to meet faiz and wan after work... they were such an ass... suppose to meet at cantonment but i have no idea where... but somehow, they manage to get away and meet me @ borders... so terkejot when saw wan... kuros sey skarang.. stress kerjer....

@530hrs

when to eat dinner at far east.... joke alot.... laugh alot... cry alot.... stare alot....eat alot.... i miss those brothers of mine... seriously, if anyone wants to go with me, he have to go through my brothers... we can literllay hug, cry, manja with each other... somehow, i always think that we are just mean to be cousins... with our level of joke, with our level of carziness. they are all what i need to make me happy...

@7.00hrs
sisha till mabok... jokes again... very lame.... and then they sent me off...

two days of fun... and relaxation....thanks to them, im better... wish someone would be there but she busy....

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Sunday, January 9, 2011
A closure 5:06 PM
When I know that it will be the end,
I literally forced my feelings numb
They say it is not a good way to overcome
but how can i overcome when i am already ripped apart?

My only options is to cry or keep busy,
but somehow the pain never goes,
I watched others with partner
I just knew that i miss my sweetheart

But i do blame myself,
for always giving him pressure
Guess it will be great if im alone
for everyone happiness.

I am no more the in fantasy world
I always think down to earth.
there no way i can fly like liy
to leave my sick mother behind.

Only his hand is warmth,
the rest of the surrounding is cold.
Denials seems to be my nickname
As of now and maybe...in future...

Public nuisance



Thursday, January 6, 2011
1:09 AM










My life has somehow reached to a closure.




Where my dreams of marrying tupai has end




i knew that i must stood strong,




i knew that i must moved on.








There is no promises that i would be back with him




No promises as i would find a new one




No promises that i will be back with razin




Lastly, no promises if i would want to commit myself








I am bruised, but not as deep




I am hurt, but not as much




I am lost, but it doesnt feel scary




I will just follow the new path








It nice to have a past.




But its scary to step to the future




Especially now when i put my mindset




to be alone for a year.








Sorry to those i have hurt




To those whom i reject.




This is my decision




And i hoped you respect.